March 10, 2007

Breanna and Brooke. They spent the weekend with us. We met them and their Mommy and Daddy at Cracker Barrel. On the way home, Breanna said that she wished somebody would invent a Time Machine someday. I said that she might live to see that. Then she said that if we had a Time Machine, then maybe Hawk could come back. Then she said that he couldn't come back because he was in Heaven. Then she said that we did everything we could for him. Then she started talking about the last time they were together (it was 3 days before he passed away) and they were talking about when Breanna was 6, Hawk was 5 and when Breanna got 7, he would be 6 and on and on. Anyway, Breanna was talking about that and she said that when she got 7, Hawk wouldn't be 6, because he would always be 5. She said that he was in Heaven and couldn't come back, but we could see him someday. We hadn't said anything about him. She just started talking about him. I know she misses him very much. They were very close.

We all miss him very much. Most of the time we are okay, but then we'll look at his picture and start talking about him and it's very hard. We have Skyla this weekend and that's still kind of bittersweet to have her. We enjoy her so much, but there's a bit of sadness because Hawk's not here also.

Skyla and Brooke: Brooke is staying with us until Monday March 5, 2007. She came on Wednesday. Kevin and Tuesday are in Houston, Texas at an Ameriplan convention. Breanna stayed with friends of theirs so that she can go to school. We went and got Skyla on Wednesday so that she and Brooke could play together. I picked her up at Day care. It was the first time I had picked her up there since Hawk passed away. It was very emotional for me. I cried most of the way home. The first two times we picked her up at her house, it was very hard for Mike and I. We have never had Skyla without Hawk. She is so precious. Anyway, when I got at the house with Skyla, Brooke saw her and naturally thought that Hawk should be with her and Brooke asked, "where's Hawk". We told her that he had went to Heaven. We don't know how much she understands, she's only 2 1/2.

Skyla and Brooke--Skyla was coloring, she wouldn't look at me to take her picture.
Skyla and Brooke playing on the swing set. They were so good with each other. They played so good together. We took Skyla back home on Wednesday night and then picked her up again on Thursday at daycare and she spent the night on Thursday night and spent all day Friday with us. She and Brooke had a great time with each other. We watched a lot of Dora the Explorer. We have that DVD memorized by now. They would hold hands and run through the house. If both of them wanted to do the same thing, they would take turns. Once, Brooke got in the rocker and Skyla wanted in it, so they would take turns with one sitting the rocker and the other one rocking her. On Friday, Mike decided to lay down with them so that they would take a nap. Anyway, I heard a lot of giggling coming from the bedroom. I went in there and Mike was almost asleep and the two little girls were laughing and playing. So I got them and took them in the living room with me and Mike took a nap. Skyla stayed until Friday evening and then she went to stay with Jamie for the weekend. I decided that Skyla is the closest child to Hawk. She has the same parents and the same grandparents. So when I kiss her face, it is the closest thing to kissing Hawk. We can love her and Hawk at the same time.