JAMES HAWK SMITH

Hawk has taken a turn for the worse. In just a week's time he has gone from walking and playing to hardly being able to walk. I still believe that we received a miracle because of Hawk doing so well for so long, but ultimately it is God's will to be done. Hawk will be healed of the tumor, either in this life or the next. So therefore if he is not healed in this life like we would want him to be, that does not mean that there is anyone in his life who does not believe enough, God did not send the tumor, but he has promised that he will be with us in all trials of life. The tumor is what is causing all of this to happen to Hawk.

Paul prayed for a thorn to be removed from his flesh, but God did not answer that prayer like Paul wanted him to. He said to him, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

I know that God loves Hawk. He loves all of us. He loves us so much that he sent his Son to die for each of us. And I know that He only wants the best for Hawk. But we see with human eyes and we do not know the big picture. God may have other plans for Hawk beyond what we can see. Hawk tells us all the time that he wants to go see Jesus. He says that he will miss us, but he wants to go and see Jesus.

We do not like any of this. It is hard for us to watch what this tumor is doing to him. He doesn't understand why he can't walk good all of a sudden. Jamie came in today and Hawk told him that he can't walk right. But he is still playing and having fun. He was on the floor pretending to be a puppy with a broke leg.

His right eye is turning in and he is having double vision. I went to Wal-mart and bought some eye patches for him. This seems to help.

Hawk belongs to God. He was Gods before he was Jamie's and Lindy's son and our grandson.
God wants only the best for Hawk, but what God wants may not be what we want. God made the world and all of us. Every breathe we take comes from him. He is the almighty God. His will not mine be done.

He blessed us with Hawk for five years. I pray that we will seek Him in all of this and that our prayer be that his will be done.

"Our Father who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be Thy name,
Thy Kingdom come
Thy Will be done on earth
as it is in Heaven,
Give us this day our daily bread
Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil
For thine is the Kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever
Amen"

MATTHEW: 6:9-13

His will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. May we look to Him and keep our faith and hope in Him.