This was made at our house last weekend. This is Hawk petting one of our baby goats. We have 9 baby goats. They are so cute!!!

UPDATE ON HAWK'S MEDICAL CONDITION:

This is the results of Hawk's MRI. This is the first MRI done since he finished with his radiation. There is a 25% reduction in the tumor!!! This is great news!!! Only 50% of the children respond to the radiation, so he is in the 50% that responded. PRAISE THE LORD. THANK ALL OF YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE PRAYERS FOR HAWK. WE GIVE ALL THE CREDIT TO GOD AND PRAYERS.

Here are some of the things that were on the medical report:

Marked interval improvement in the pontine neoplastic lesion most consistent with low grade glioma. Improved mass effect upon the fourth ventricle which is now more patent.
Improvement in effacement of the pre-pontine cistern.

FINDINGS: Since the previous study there has been marked interval improvement in the MR appearance of the pontine glioma. There has been significant decrease in size and mass effect.-----No new lesions are apparant.

Also an update on Mike:---He does have prostate cancer, but (thank the good Lord) it has not spread. He does not have to take any kind of treatments----He will be having robotic surgery at Centennial Hospital on April 21. His doctors are very positive that this will take care of the cancer and he should be doing great after he completely recuperates.

Jamie shaking hands with Johnny Rhodes


On February 25, Some of Jamie's friends sponsored a benefit for him and Hawk at the fairgrounds. Brandy Sanders was the one who coordinated the event with lots ofhelp from other people. Here is a list of people who our family want to thank from the bottom of our heart. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH:

Workers: Brandy and Steve Sanders--- Scott and Jennifer Jenkins ~~ also in addition to helping, Tater donated an Elvis book to be auctioned----Jason Sanders and Crystal Likens ~ also in addition to helping, Crystal's grandmother donated a quilt that she made to be auctioned--Jody and Lindsay Race ----Jerry and Andrea Weaver ~ ----Barbara Sanders ---Betty Loftis ------Michael and Felicia Drake ---Virgleen Seay ----Faye Brinley and girls ----Trisha McCarter ----Barry Loftis---Heather Blackburn

HERE ARE THE CONTRIBUTORS:
Contributors:(These are from Lebanon unless otherwise noted)---Lebanon Vacuum and Sewing---Pepsi Bottling Company---Hunter's Point Golf Course----Flowers By Lynn----Nashville Superspeedway---Pizza Hut---Curves for Women---Heavenly Ham---H & H Furniture---Clayborn's Bakery---The Barn Bar and Grill---The White Room---Painturo's Piazza--Ziggy's Pizza--Toot's - Murfreesboro---Whitt's Barbecue---Fred's - Lebanon and Hartsville---Papa John's---Domino's---The Best Deal Pawn and Music---Baskin Robbins---Wal-Mart - Carthage and Antioch----Hooter's - Murfreesboro---Cedar Creek - Mt. Juliet---Regal Cinemas---Heavenscent---Java Joe's--Moss' - Mt. Juliet---Grandma's Quilting and Sewing--Griffith's--Studio Z - Smyrna---Johnny Rodes---O' Charley's - Hermitage---Tennessee Titans---The English Touch---Puffy Muffin - Franklin---Ponderosa Steakhouse---Big Idea----The Flower Cottage----Monograms Plus----Friends In Stitches----George Jones---Topper's Music---Cox's Gift's and Jewelry---Park Avenue Florist---Center Barber Shop--West Main Garden Center---The Paper Mill----Cumberland University---Music City Motorplex---Friedman's Jewelers---Chip Ganassi Racing---Lil' Paul's Barbecue---Nashville Sounds---Love One Another Church---PFG/Kenneth O. Lester---Minchey's - Mt. Juliet----Wilson County Fairgrounds

Here are some pictures from the benefit: This in Johnny Rhodes, one of the performers.



This is one of the clowns that were at the benefit. There were five clowns. This one kept the children entertained all night. Some of the others did face painting. There were four women clowns and one man clown. This is Sidney Blackburn and Breanna Smith with the clown.



This is Kayla Conner and Brooke Smith--two of Hawk's and Skyla's cousins. Due to circumstances beyond our family's control, Hawk and Skyla were not there. But we had a lot of pictures of them sitting on a table. Hawk and Skyla would have really enjoyed the bands and the clowns and the other children. Channel 17 was there and interviewed me, Jamie, and Kayla.



This is a picture of Breanna with her face painted .



This is a picture of Heather and Kelsey. They helped serve the bean supper. There were several bands, the clowns, a silent auction, and a delicious bean supper. Mrs Barbara Sanders cooked all the beans and made the slaw for the bean supper. THANKS TO HER. There was also pizza donated by Pizza Hut and drinks donated by Wal-Mart. THANKS TO ALL. Thank to all of you who came and enjoyed the evening with us and participated in the silent auction. A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE.

These pictures were made at The Fun Factory. Everything is indoors. The picture on the left is of Hawk and Mike in the bumber cars. I can't tell if the other person is Kevin or Jamie. Anyway, Hawk had a ball on the bumber cars. The picture on the right is of all of us as we were getting ready to play laser tag. That was so much fun!!! We also saw a 3-D movie and played indoor putt-putt golf. It was under black lights and it looked like we were under the ocean. It had mermaids and sunken ships etc. Hawk and Breanna loved it. Anyway, everything was a lot of fun. After we left this place, we stopped and ate dinner and then drove on back home. We all had so much fun!!!

More pictures of the aquarium. This is Hawk in the pirates cove. He is shooting a cannon at me . This is a picture of Jamie in a divers suit with Hawk looking on. Jamie and Hawk eating lunch at the aquarium.That's all of the ones of the aquarium. This day was beginning to be cloudy and looking like it might rain. And by the time we got out of the aquarium and got back to the van, it had begun to rain. But we found a place called The Fun Factory in Gatlinburg and everything was indoors. I will have pictures of it on the next post.

These are more pictures of our trip to Gatlinburg on February 21-22. This was the pancake house that we ate at on Wednesday morning. This is a picture of Aunt Tuesday and Hawk. Hawk was wanting to be cuddled for awhile after he ate breakfast. He is a sweet, precious little boy.
He is just a very loving, sweet little boy.
I pray all the time that he will be healed. This is a picture of Kevin and Breanna acting silly in the gift shop of the pancake house . And Jamie trying on a silly wig at the gift shop. These pictures were made at the aquarium of Hawk and Breanna. It was a small aquarium and it had a whole in the middle where they could go up in and it looked like they were in the aquarium. We had so much fun during these two days. But it is always in the back of my mind that Hawk has a very very serious illness and I am constantly praying that the Lord will take the tumor away.

Here are some pictures made on our trip to Gatlinburg on February 21-22. We had a great time. Jamie, Hawk, Kevin, Tuesday, Breanna, Mike and I went. We didn't take Skyla and Brooke because we felt like it would be easier to just take Hawk and Breanna.
These are two of my favorite pictures of Jamie and Hawk. The one on the right and the one below.


These are pictures of Hawk and Breanna riding some of the rides. They had so much fun.

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Notice both of the tongues out as they were running for the next ride. SO CUTE!!! We arrived on Tuesday afternoon and the weather was beautiful. It was very warm and sunny. We decided to go to the Nascar theme park in Pigeon Forge. There were very few people there. We almost had the whole park to ourselves. We bought some tickets to ride some of the rides, but then one of the employees told us that we could ride any of the rides as much as we wanted to. We believe that all of this was a blessing from God. The beautiful weather, the almost empty theme park, and the generosity of the employees. Jamie and Hawk rode the race cars and Tuesday and Breanna were in another one and Kevin was in one by himself. Jamie and Hawk won the race. Then we all rode the roller coaster. Breanna and Hawk rode some of the children's rides by themselves. And they rode the race cars again. Anyway, everyone had a great time. We went in Kevin and Tuesday's mini van. They have DVD's players in the van. And Hawk and Breanna both insisted that Pa Pa Mike sit in the back with them. So he got to watch movies all the way up there and back. At one point, I looked back and Hawk had his head laying on one of Mike's shoulders and Breanna had her head on the other shoulder(both of them were asleep). That is what I call a very blessed man.

Update on this week: February 13th thru 18th

Hawk is still feeling good and is happy and has his energy back.

On Monday Hawk and Skyla got back into Nashville very late from their trip to Disney World.

On Tuesday, Hawk and Skyla's Aunt Tuesday picked them up and took them home with her to spend the night.
Here is an excerpt from an e-mail that she sent:
We had a good day while Hawk and Skyla spent the night. Hawk and Breanna painted, watched wallace and gromitt and played on the computer. They talked about all the stuff they wanted to do this summer: Go swimming, going to the park, and going to the fair together. Hawk wants Breanna to ride the dragon roller coaster with him. Hawk was laughing so hard at Kevin. Kevin was letting the kids put all kinds of pillows and toys on top of him.
Skyla and Brooke lay in the bed together watching tv for a while and looking at books.

On Wednesday, Lindy came to Tuesday and Kevin's and picked up Skyla. She took Skyla with her, and Tuesday took Breanna, Hawk, and Brooke to Watertown School. They were presenting Lindy with the final check from the silent auction and entertainment they had for Lindy and Hawk. Ken was there and the reporter from the Lebanon Democrat. I came in late and stood at the back of the gym. The children of the school sang the special song for Hawk and then the principal made the presentation of the check to Lindy. It was over $36,000.














These pictures are of Breanna and Hawk. They were made at Watertown School on Wednesday.

Later that afternoon, Lindy, Hawk, Skyla and Ken and newschannel 5 went to Lindy's new house for the ribbon cutting.

On Friday, Jamie and Lindy took the children to Chattanooga for Hawk to see a Doctor for alternative treatments. We are to cut out all sugar for him and he is being given vitamins and minerals to build up his immune system. Also, some more treatments that are non-invasive and intented to help him fight the cancer. He will be going to Murfreesboro once a week for these treatments.

On the way back from the clinic visit, Jamie stopped at the fireworks warehouse and told Hawk that he could pick out any fireworks he wanted. Jamie said that they had only went down about half of one aisle when Jamie had to tell him that that was enough. We shot some of the fireworks on Friday night and are saving the rest for a warmer night. Hawk and Skyla loved watching the fireworks. These are some of the things Jamie wants to do--have a fireworks display for his little son and daughter and their cousins and all of the family. This brings a lot of joy to Hawk and Skyla and to us adults who get to watch their faces light up with happiness. We are planning on having all of our family over one night for a fireworks display. Won't this make a little boy happy!!!

This is a flyer that was given out for the prayer service for Hawk on December 28, 2005. I tried to scan it and copy it to this site, but it was so small, that it was hard to read it, so I've retyped it word for word.

Our family appreciates so much the elders and prayer ministry and everyone who attended the prayer service for Hawk at College Hills Church of Christ


Prayer Service for Hawk Smith
Wednesday, December 28, 2005

May God be glorified. We gather in stunned pain and tenacious hope to plead in prayer for a young child's recovery, for his family's strength, for his medical help's wisdom. We beg a nurturing spirit and commitment to prayer in all of us who love and care for this child and his family that we may stand in unwavering support for them, ministering to them as the Lord would have us, praying in their stead when exhaustion overcomes them.

II Corinthians 1:3-5 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

Psalm 139:8-10 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

We pray in the faith that our Lord has never failed us in His love. In our frailty we long for assurance that Hawk rests in the palm of God's precious hand.

Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

THE WORDS OF JESUS "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in Me." John 14:1

He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. " And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me...." Matthew 18:2-5

I wanted to add this e-mail from a friend of the family because it is so sweet. Thank you Danita for the kind words about our family.


Hi Tuesday,
I left you a message on your answering machine but I know you guys are probably extremely busy. I would like to contribute to the yard sale, I don’t have a whole lot but I’d like to give what I can. I also would like to shop the yard sale to contribute there as well, I just hope I haven’t waited too late. If you need me to bring the clothes Friday evening instead of Saturday morning I will happy to do so. I do apologize for this being a bit last minute. I was able to read some of Gwen’s blog today and WOW it really hit my heart! In knowing your family for all these years I’ve learned that you guys are full of love and work very well together in a strong support system I’m sure this is only strengthening those bonds. I trust the Lord will see you all through this and Hawk is so fortunate to be born to a family like yours. All of you are in my family’s prayers. God Bless.
Danita

These pictures were made last weekend at our house. My sister and brother-in-law, Wanda and Warren Parker, were visiting from South Carolina. Hawk and Wanda found all of these candles ( I save numbered candles from year to year) and Hawk decided that he wanted a cake with all of the candles on it. So Warren went to Wal-Mart and bought a cake for Hawk and we put the candles on it and he blew all of them out.

Hawk had gotten off of the steroids, but had to go back on them last week because he was dragging his left foot again. He is taking 1 tablet a day now. He has taken his last radiation treatment. There will not be anymore radiation. He will have an MRI in about 5 weeks to see if the tumor has shrunken.

Last Friday night there was a great benefit in Hawk's honor at Watertown Hight School. When we first got there, he was not feeling too well because of the steroids, but he soon started feeling a lot better and started playing and having a good time. He really cheered up when Jamie got there. I am so proud of our family. They always support each other. Chris and Wanda and Kevin and Breanna (Tuesday was in Carthage working very hard on a Yard sale to benefit Jamie and Hawk),and Brooke was with a sitter. Mike and I, and Hawk's great-grandmother, Cathy Waddle and her husband, Derald Waddle and our good friends, Charlie and Frances Parson were there for Hawk's special night. Jamie saw a lot of his old friends from high school. A lot of them came over and said Hi to him and Hawk and offered their support. A friend of the family came all the way from Lawrence County with his family to be their because they are all praying for Hawk. There was a lot of good entertainment. Jason Meadows was there. The school children sang a special song just for Hawk.
Hawk and Breanna and Skyla were playing and having a great time with all of the rest of the children. He and Breanna are so close. They love each other so much.

Hawk started getting tired and wanted to leave and wanted to go home with us. On the way home he decided that he wanted a cheese biscuit. Mike said he didn't know where we could get a cheese biscuit at that time of the night. I said well we could stop at Four Winds Truck Stop. They would have cheese because they make cheeseburgers and they would have biscuits because they make breakfast. So we stopped there and they made Hawk a cheese biscuit.

This week Hawk has gone to Walt Disney World with Make A Wish Foundation. I'm sure he and Skyla are having a great time.


May God Bless each and everyone of you. Thanks to each and everyone who is praying for Hawk.

We found out last Wednesday that Mike has prostate cancer. He had test done on Monday and Tuesday to see if it had spread. Please pray that it has not. We will go back to the doctor this Friday the 10th to get the results of those tests. Thanks to everyone for all of the calls and prayers for him and Hawk.

January 18th, 2006.

Hawk wanted a picture of him and his daddy to hang on his refrigerator.

Hawk doesn't look like himself with all of the swelling, but his smile and laugh are still the same. It's good to have him laughing and happy again.

The other day, Hawk told me that his daddy was big and strong and I said "He is?" and Hawk said "Yes, because he can lift me over his head."

We all love this little boy very much. Children bring such joy to our lives. They are truly a gift from God.

This picture was taken last Wednesday the 18th, 2006.

Before Christmas, Tuesday asked Hawk what he wanted for Christmas. He told her he wanted sand and shovels. She asked him what else he wanted and he said just sand and shovels.

After Hawk was diagnosed with the tumor, Tuesday's Uncle Bill Green found out that Hawk wanted sand for Christmas, so he searched until he found a big green covered turtle sand box and filled it with sand. Tuesday's parents, Jimmy and Judy Roberts brought Hawk lots of shovels and sand buckets from Florida.They took them to Kevin and Tuesday's for Hawk. Hawk had been so sick, that he hadn't been able to go to Kevin and Tuesday's until last Wednesday. Since it snowed that morning, Hawk didn't go to his radiation treatment, so Jamie got him and took him to see Kevin, Tuesday, Breanna and Brooke. Skyla was at our house, so she didn't go. Anyway, Kevin, Tuesday and Jamie pulled that big sand box into the den downstairs and let Hawk and Breanna and Brooke play in it.
Hawk had so much fun that day.

They didn't think about getting sand in the carpet, they only thought about making a little boy happy for that day.

God bless you all.

This is a picture of Skyla and Hawk made in the Spring of 2005. He loves his little sister and she loves her big brother.

Before Hawk got sick, when he had energy and could play, Skyla would watch everything he would do. If he cried, she would cry and if he immediately started laughing, she would laugh. She calls him Bubba.

He's always tickling her and trying to get her to laugh. One day, before he got sick, they were at our house and he went downstairs and got some toys just for her to play with. One of the toys was too big for her and he took it back downstairs and got one just for her. He has always been so good to her.

We love watching them play together. Hawk has already started getting his personality back. Since his steroids have been cut back, he is laughing and being very happy again. Hopefully, when he is through with his radiation treatments, he'll get his energy back and we'll have our little Hawk back and he and Skyla can play together again.

I pray that God will heal Hawk so that he and Skyla and Breanna and Brooke can all grow up together. I know that God promises that he will not give us anything that we can't handle.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." 2 Cor 1:3-4 NIV.

This picture was taken a few days before Christmas. This is Hawk, his cousin, Breanna (5 yrs. old), his little sister, Skyla (16 mon. old, sitting in Pa Pa Mike's lap), and his cousin, Brooke (21 mon. old). They were sitting in the sunroom watching the Christmas train go around. Hawk loves trains.

He and Breanna are so close. The day that Hawk was released from the hospital and came to our house to spend the night, Breanna's mommy (Tuesday) had stopped by our house and Breanna left her favorite blanket (a spiderman blanket) for Hawk to have. In the days to come, when he was feeling so bad and only wanted to rest, he would get that spiderman blanket and lay on the couch and cover up with it. Also, he was at our house the weekend he was released from the hospital the second time. My sister, Wanda and her husband, Warren Parker were in from South Carolina to visit everyone and especially Hawk. The rest of our kids and their families came over to see them and to be with each other. When Breanna came in (she and Hawk had not seen each other in about 2 weeks), Hawk was lying on the couch. He raised up and said "Breanna, come here. I haven't seen you in a long time." They both hugged each other. It was so sweet. By this time he was very tired and didn't feel like playing. When Breanna got ready to leave, she hugged Hawk and told him that not only did she love him because he was her best friend, but he was her cousin also, so she loved him even more.

Update Thursday, January 12, 2006

Hawk's steroids have been reduced to 1/2 a tablet once a day in the morning. We have seen a huge difference in him. He is still tired but not as tired as he was. He is laughing a lot more. He is interacting with us more. He met his Pa Pa Mike at the door yesterday and today with a big smile on his face. This is the first time this has happened in a while. He sits up on the couch and watches his cartoons (Tom and Jerry; we tape all of the Tom and Jerry episodes now) and laughes at them. Before, he was just laying on the couch and didn't interact very much. He just looks and acts much more alert.

I just want to thank all of you for all of you prayers, e-mails, and concern for Hawk. We are so thankful to all you for helping us to bear this burden. We are praying and trusting in the Lord and keeping our joy and peace while we work very hard to help Hawk.

Hawk's parents (they are divorced, but work together for the good of the children), and us, the grandparents, have decided to seek alternative treatments for him, after he finishes his radiation and steroids (2 1/2 more weeks). According to his doctors, he will receive no more treatments after this. And they are not giving us very much hope for recovery. But we thoroughly believe that that is totally up to God. He and He only knows when our time will be.

Thank all of you again so much for all of your prayers, e-mails, emotional support and for bearing this burden with us. May God have the Glory. God Bless all of you.

"In Christ Jesus...the only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love." GALATIANS 5:6 NIV---Your love for the Lord and others is making an ETERNAL difference, and the many lives you've touched include OURS---

Take Care and God Bless,
Gwen and Mike

Update January 9, 2006

Hawk is in his 4th week of radiation. He has been on steroids since Dec. 14th. The steroids have caused him to have a huge appetite. He has gained a lot of weight or has fluid retention or both. I am posting a picture of him taken a few days before Christmas after a few radiation and steroid treatments and one taken last week after almost 3 weeks of radiation and steroids. He is very tired most of the time. He mainly just lies on the couch and watches cartoons.

The steroids make him very moody and irritable (this is not his fault, it is a side-effect of the steroids). Also we found out on Friday that the steroids cause him to have flu-like symptoms. A lot of the time, he just wants to be left alone. He complains of his stomach hurting quite a bit, but we give him tylenol and that seems to help. Everything about him has changed. He has gone from an energetic, very friendly, loving little boy to one who has no energy and a lot of the time just wants to be left alone. He has begun to lose some of his hair. We are praying that after the treatments, he will get some of his energy back.

We usually have him and Skyla on the weekends and Jamie stays with them here. Jamie has to work all week, so he likes to get them on the weekend and lately stays at our house with them.

He is a precious little boy and we love him so much.

Thank you all so much for all of your prayers and e-mails and cards.

May God bless each and everyone of you. If there is anything we can do for any of you, please let us know.

God Bless,
Gwen

For several weeks our family had noticed that Hawk was holding his head sideways while looking at anything. Then we started to notice that he was dragging his left foot while walking. He looked like someone who had had a stroke. His whole left side seemed to be affected.

On Monday, Dec. 12, 2005, I called Lindy and told her if she would get an appointment for Hawk that I would take him to his doctor, Dr. Steger. She got the appointment for Dec. 14th. I called Jamie and told him and he decided to go with me. Ken (his other grandpa) called and asked if he could go also. Ken took Hawk and Jamie and I met him at the doctors office. Dr. Steger watched Hawk walk and checked his eyes, he could not move his right eye to the right. She told us that he had probably either had a stroke or had a mass in the brain or on the spinal cord. She immediately called Vanderbilt Children's Hospital and we all drove down there together--Ken, Jamie, Hawk and I. Lindy had picked up Skyla and taken her to our house. In the meantime Hawk had had a CT scan. The resident came in and told Ken, Jamie and I that Hawk definitely had a large mass in his brain, and informed us that they would be doing an MRI the next morning.

Lindy and Mimi Barbara arrived. Pa Pa Mike stayed at home and kept Skyla. Everyone was in shock and very upset with the news we already had. Jamie and Lindy stayed with Hawk that night and the rest of us went home.


On DECEMBER 15TH, 2005, Nanna Gwen took Skyla to daycare and then went to the hospital. Pa Ken, Mimi Barbara, Jamie, and Lindy were there. We were waiting for the MRI to be done and what course of action would be taken. .

Dr Steger came in to see Hawk. She was very nice. She went around the room and hugged all of us. Jim Andrews came by to see Hawk. Hawk's great-grandmother, Cathy Waddle and her husband, Derald Waddle came in to see Hawk. Pa Pa Mike came after work, around 2:00 p.m. Hawks Aunt Tuesday and cousins Breanna and Brooke came in. This really cheered Hawk up. They had a huge bouquet of balloons and a big basket full of things for Hawk and Jamie and Lindy. There were a lot of tears shed that day, we didn't know exactly what was going on, but we knew that it was not good. Our preacher, Larry Locke and Frank Dudley came in to see Hawk. Pa Ken and Mimi Barbara had to leave to pick Skyla up from daycare. Everyone else left except for Mike, and I, Jamie, Lindy, Larry and Frank Dudley. We were still waiting for the results of the MRI. All during this day, they had been putting IV's in Hawk and taking vital signs and taking him for tests, etc. In between all of this, he always wanted to go to the first floor and see the train. Once, when one of the nurses came into the room, Hawk looked at her and said" Don't you come in here messing with me anymore." I guess he had had it with all of the IV's, test, etc. All of it was pretty traumatic for him.

Finally, Dr. Kuttesch came in and asked Jamie and Lindy to step into another room with him. I asked if I could go and they said that it was okay. Mike and Larry stayed in the room with Hawk. They played a board game (Candyland) with him.

Dr. Kuttesch sat there and quietly and calmly told us what the results were. He said that Hawk had a tumor in his brain stem. It is called Pontine Glioma. It is very rare and very malignant. Surgery could not be done because of where it was located, in the Pons area of the brain stem. This tumor does not respond very well to chemotherapy. The only treatment is radiation and steroids. He told us that 95% of the children do not live two years and that the other 5% live to two years. None of us expected to hear this kind of news.

Jamie went back into the room to be with Hawk. Lindy was having a hard time and felt like she needed to go outside for some fresh air for awhile.
I called Mike out into the hall. Larry and Frank Dudley came out there also. I told Mike what we had been told. Larry went into the quiet room with us and had a prayer with us.

I called Ken and Barbara to let them know what the news was. I called Tuesday and told her. She called Kevin, he was at work, I called Chris and Wanda, I called Hawk's great-grandparents and his great-aunts and uncles. There were a lot of tears shed that night and a lot of them since. Ken decided to come back to the hospital. Mike and I stayed until after dark, then we left. Mike had to work the next day. As we were leaving, we met our son, Chris and his wife Wanda coming in to see Hawk. Naturally, Jamie and Lindy were not leaving Hawk, so they stayed again that night.

DECEMBER 16th, 2005

That day they put the portacathe in Hawks's chest in order to administer the anesthesia. He was to be put asleep each time he was given a radiation treatment.

Hawk had told Mike that when he was released from the hospital that he wanted to come to our house to spend the night, it was very late by the time he was released. Lindy decided to spend the night at our house also to be with Hawk. And Jamie stayed also.

Sat. December 18th

We went to Kevin and Tuesday's house for our Christmas party together.
Mike and I, Kevin and Tuesday, Breanna, and Brooke, Jamie,Chris and Wanda and their grandbabies, Caleb, McKenzie, and Jenna. Jamie and Lindy decided that it might be too much for Hawk, so he and Skyla didn't go. A friend of Kevin and Tuesday's, Junior Nesbitt, came by and prayed with us. He said the most beautiful prayer for Hawk.

Monday December 19th
Hawk started his radiation treatments. He seemed to do well with the treatments. He had been on the steroids since Dec. 14. By the end of the week, we could see a big difference in him.

December 25, 2005

Skyla and Hawk had Christmas with the McPeaks on december 24, so Jamie got them early Christmas morning and came to our house. After only one week of treatments, the difference in Hawk was huge. Naturally, all of the family wanted to love on him and talk to him, but his mood had already started to change. He really felt bad. He cried a lot that day. He only wanted Mike or Jamie or I to hold him that day.
Mike always plays Santa Clause on Christmas Day. He puts a pillow under the santa suit and wears a santa wig and beard, so the children don't recognize him. The last two Christmas's Hawk really enjoyed this, but this Christmas he was feeling so bad, that he just sat in Jamie's lap and cried.
Breanna really liked Santa. She told Santa that he was getting too fat, so she had left him an apple and juice under her tree. Brooke was clinging to Aunt Wanda and Skyla was clinging to Uncle Chris. But then Santa gave all of them a flashlight and they all (including Hawk) liked Santa after that. Even little Skyla and Brooke went to Santa to get the flashlights.